Behind these Eyes..

Behind these eyes lies a love so grand,
A love so big it covers the land
No depth of sea or star’s of space,
Could match the picture of just your face

Behind these eyes lies a truth so true, 
Not one temptation could begin to undo
With hair so sleek and eyes so bright
A living dream I see each night

Behind these eyes lies a woman of pride
That no person alive could set aside
The sound of your voice a song of songs
Playing round in my head all night long

Behind these eyes stands a pillar of trust
Even the rainy days couldn’t begin to rust
The tastes of your kiss so addicting and sweet
One touch of your lips knocks me off my feet

Behind these eyes lies a patient woman
thats gentle and kind and does all she can
With the touch of your skin, melting starts
Flames of passion light up my heart

I promise to love till my dying day 
to never give up and always to stay
No question of soul or doubt in mind
Shall you see in your heart or attempt to find.

For Behind these eyes lies a woman you know
Overjoyed and thankful for the love you show
An answer now coming clear to see
That behind these eyes lies non-other than ME 


I’m sorry..

I’m sorry i didn’t listen
I’m sorry for doing what i did
I’m sorry coz a part of me knew you where right

I’m sorry that i can’t fix it
I’m sorry you are hurt
I’m sorry you are angry at me even though you have every right to be

I’m sorry that i am this stubborn
I’m sorry i just wanted to share
I’m so sorry

Tags: sorry sad love

Lets get sexual

Anal sex isn’t just for the sexually daring anymore. It’s becoming more and more common in bedrooms around the world.


But to be fair, do people really know all the facts, before they knock on the back door? The Porn industry makes it look all glam and clean, but in reality, shit happends. And for that reson, a lot of women are quiet hassitent about it. See women put so much emphasis on making themselves look pretty and sweet-smelling for their men, so the merest glimmer of a possibility that you might see her explode all over herself is obviously devastating to her. No longer will you see her as a beautiful, desirable woman; you’ll forever be picturing her covered in feces. It’s not exactly the look she’s going for.

From personal experiance, it can get messy and it made me VERY uncomfortable. Luckily my darling boyfriend is a sweetheart and was nice about the whole insident.

But besides it possibly being messy anal sex can hurt like a mofo. The rectum is not built to have things go in; only out. The vagina stretches to let in a penis and give birth, but a rectum does not. Thus you can cause searing pain if you don’t prepare her properly. That means a) asking her first (duh) b) using lube and c) going very slowly and not pounding into her like a jackrabbit. 

Everything from tearing and bleeding, to pain for days if your partner is not carefull with you. 

But with that all said, if every step is done and both of you feel ready, it can be a very wonderfull feeling that can lead to a totally different orgasm for both the woman and the man. 

So here are some tips;

  • Foreplay foreplay foreplay
  • Lube up for days
  • Use a finger first than maybe two, don’t go penis first. Thats a no go.
  • Slow movements at first, let her lead. When she is ready go faster. 
  • Talk about it..!
  • Try and stimulate her clitorise while inside her anally, it relaxes her more and makes it much more pleasurable.
  • Be aware of the fact that you can hurt her, if you are not carefull.
  • And lastly, if shit does happened, dont judge, be understanding.

- Pancake


The distance is heavy on my heart..

It is said, that love is stronger than any distance - I strongly belive in this. 


Seeing as how I finally met the love of my life and he is countries away from me, the pain is sometimes unbareable. As a woman, I am very emotional and even though I’m all about being happy and enjoying what you have, it’s hard to just sit back and not be sad when he is not around. 

It’s the little things that he can’t be a part of, that’s the most painfull. When I bake a cake and he can’t even taste it, when something funny or amazing happeneds he can’t be there to share it with me, taking a walk and being able to hold his hand, kiss him when ever i feel like it, lay in his arms and read a book while he plays on his PS4 or even just as simple as having dinner together, but the worst are the nights, the cold nights in bed alone trying not too feel as lonely as I really am, his breathing, his heartbeat, his tiny snore, when he talks in his sleep, when he takes all the blanket and mostly when he mumbles in his sleep ” I love you “…

When we started talking, it became very obvious to me, how easily he could become someone very close to my heart. To be honest, it scared me half to death. With past experiances from ex boyfriends to my father and my moms now ex husband, I did not exactly have a good past when it came to men. It was wierd to me, that I trusted him so easily, but there is just something about him and I can’t seem to put my finger on it. 

As time went by and the more I learned about him, the more we talked I became like a 14 years old teenage girl again, madly in love.

He is a part of my family and with out him, I don’t know where i’d be right now. I can’t imagine my life without him. 

The fear of loosing him is there all the time, besides the distance, I know that I am not the easiest person to be with. With a lot of past trauma and drama, it is fair to say, I am very high tempered and quiet sensitive. Two things i can not stand about myself. And even with all off my bullshit, he is still with me, loving me, accepting me, listening to me every time something is wrong. 

As a woman who is deeply in love with a man - I need to learn that I’m not always right and hopefully this way, me and him can spend the rest of our lifes together - as family.

- Pancake